Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Larry Dyer
Larry Dyer

A passionate writer and coastal enthusiast sharing her love for ocean-inspired living and sustainable practices.